That's what my life feels like right now.
When the clock was ticking at the end of our time in Florida, I felt the same way. We were at that point where we knew we weren't going to be in the Sunshine State so we didn't really want to do anything but we couldn't get anything started in Pennsylvania because we weren't there yet.
That feeling is creeping back up in me and I'm having a difficult time shaking it. Now, don't get this twisted, this isn't a woe is me...poor pity me post but I'm trying to wrap my mind around everything and where our lives are headed up here. I read my girl Brittany's post and she couldn't have said it any better (plus she has a way better way with words than me) but I feel a pull yet to Florida and don't feel like my life up here is reality yet.
It's weird though because I was born and raised here and you think that I would be used to the way things work and what is what but living down in Florida for the past 5 years has really thrown me for a loop. Here's two things that have thrown me:
The lack of food options and available hours
Living in Orlando I was able to get favored my appetite usually at any type of hour. Fast food restaurants were open 24 hours and pizza shops were a gimme and available till late hours of the night. Also Cheesecake Factory, Carraba's, California Pizza Kitchen, Benihana's and so many other were at my fingertips where here there most even possibilities and if they are they're atleast hours away. It saddens me that I can only get Pizzeria pizza and Farlow's here until 8.
No easy access booze
I'm no lush but I do like to have the occasional adult beverage every now and then. When that mood struck in FL, Big Man and I would just hop in the car and head to the nearest gas station or Wal-Mart to pick up our 6 pack as long as it was before I believe 1 or 2am. Here in PA in you have to go to a distributor and pick up a case and they usually close by 9. You can also get them at bars but I feel icky going and picking up a 40 (oh yeah, I keeps it klassy) and just leaving.
Now like I said I've lived here for 19 years of my life and those were things I grew up and just accepted but it feels weird now coming back and being a somewhat different person and at a different point in my life.
I'm not bashing PA, I do love it here but I'm just trying to adjust to this new life I live and this new normal. I think that it is harder to try to progress and move forward since I don't have a job or my own place but I know these things will happen. I'm just hoping they happen sooner rather than later. I want to get back to the the life we had when we had our apartment and it was just us. With planning the wedding and becoming a wifey soon, I want to start making our OWN home and getting along with my career and life.
It's just a process and journey I guess! : )
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Living in limbo is hard! I totally understand. That's where we are now and when I try to expalin how it feels people give me a werid look because as soon as I say something I know other people don't understand. I just can't seem to explain it! keep at it girl you'll find your little place in the world even if it is in PA :)
you will adjust soon hun!
patience darlin'! ;)
although, like you, i would not be a happy camper if i had to adjust to those two things. haha.
in MN the LQ stores are only open until 10 but they are every where. mcdonalds is about the only thing about 24 hours...oh and perkins ;)
It will probably take a bit to flow smoothly. Those alcohol laws are weird though!
I know how you feel. I've lived in my college town for he last 6 years, and even though my parents town is "home" I'm not sure how i feel about moving back, although I know I don't want to be here forever... it just is so weird!
HUGS!!!
I'm sure everything will become familiar, soon.
It has to be weird to have all that at your fingertips and then it not to be there. Not quite the same thing, but when I moved to another area of town, I went from two minutes from EVERYTHING to 10-15 mins. It doesn't sound like a lot (and, it's not, now), but it took some getting used to.
I'm sure those things are an adjustment to get used to, and I hope it all falls into place soon!
So true. We worked up so much energy to move, and now that we've finally done it, we're all worn out and ill-adjusted. I guess it just takes time. meanwhile, I totally relate, and I'll miss Florida with you!
You're such a sweet friend, love:) Thanks for always being supportive!
I am sure the adjustment will happen soon. I remember working at camp in Maryland and we used to go buy 40s. :)
Oh how I love the cheesecake factory...yum! I definitely hope you start adjusting soon. I'm thinking about you.
~Meg @ "Through the Roses"
Welcome to our Keystone state, Lil' Woman! hehehe Trust me, living here in central PA, I feel ya. Even in a university town, everything still closes early and it would be much more convenient to pick up your alcohol while you're picking up your toilet paper... esp since it always seems like the booze places are in some awkward location. Hang in there- you'll make it! "Chin up, Wilbur".
That seriously sucks that you can't get booze at bars and stuff! I think it is the twenty something curse to be in limbo. I guess we will miss it? Who knows!
I have that same feeling when i visit my grandparents. There isnt much around like there is down here. You have to get used to the slower pace I guess. It takes a while...
Hopefully you will start getting used to it there, I'm sure there is an adjustment period. But I totally understand how that could be a little odd, I mean no pizza at 1am, WTF!!??
It gets easier, stick with it and keep looking for the yummy food and booze -- haha!
There is always that time after you move to a new place where the cracks start to show. It's definitely normal and I know you guys will work through it :)
i had the same problem when we moved back to my hometown.
had the same problem when we moved to my hometown. i'm interested to see what will be in Michigan.
yes adjusting isn't as easy for most i'm still praying i was back in my old apt in cali but i wake up in nj every morning woe is me :( my husband on the other hand hes from jersey he came back has friends knows places and has seen it all booo for us newbies I hope things settle and more drive thrus open up lol I miss my mexican food
It just taKes a bit of time to adjust. Without a job you probably still feel like you're just visiting.
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