8.27.2009

P.S. I Love You...

Is what I watched this morning, and has now all day made me think about death and dying and all the things that surround it.

If you haven't seen the movie, the gist of it is that a woman (Hilary Swank) loses her husband (Gerard Butler) and after his death she receives a bunch of letters that he has pre-written out to her. I personally thought it was a sweet movie and shed a few tears throughout it.

But I don't think it was so much the storyline that made me weep, but the thought of losing someone I love, most of all a husband.

Now I don't plan on dying anytime soon (who does?) but I have thought alot about what it would be like if I was gone. I always wonder who will attend my funeral, will people laugh as they reminisce about me, how many boxes of macaroni will be in my casket (if you know me, you know this would not be unusual), what kind of music will they play, etc.

In all honesty, I would not want my services to be sad and depressing. I understand that of course people are going to be upset, c'mon how could you not miss this, but if I had my way I would want it to be a joyous party celebrating my life. So far, I've lived a pretty awesome effin life and I would want to go out with a bang.

- White, pink, and yellow balloons released at my grave...yes please!
-A little Lynyrd Skynyrd and some Free Bird...hell fuckin yeah
(what can I say I'm still a country bumpkin at ♥)
-A feast of grilled cheese, macaroni and cheese, lasagna, pierogies, and cereal...you best believe it

Hopefully, I will not have to find out about these things till verrry much later in my life but if I was to go, that's the way I would want to go.

Now if the shoe was one the other foot and I lost Big Man...I don't know what I would do. God bless those who have actually lost a significant other, cause I don't think I would ever know how to deal. I get choked up just thinking about it. I would most def. be a blubbering mess who would sleep in his clothing for months, it would be a sad sight.

And my family, oh lordy, I don't even want to think about that...

Well I think I have touched on enough morbid stuff for one day so I am going to go jam out to my funeral playlist and and thank God I'm still alive another day! :)

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You all know I suck about uploading pictures, so hopefully I'll have the disney pics up tomorrow! :)

20 comments:

CeCe said...

I know what you mean about being sad just thinking about loosing your man. I honestly feel like I would want to go first because I just really don't want to live in a world that he isn't in. But, like you said hopefully we wont have to think about ANY of that stuff for a long while.

Unknown said...

That movie was SO SAD. Husby and I watched it together and I would totally have been Hilary Swank all depressed.

Katie said...

I agree, I want yummy food and good music at my funeral! And your menu sounds DELISH!

Kris Norman said...

That movie is so sad, but it's cute and Gerard Butler is nice to look at. I definitely want my funeral to uplifting, I don't want everyone to be all depressed because that's not who I am.

Christy said...

That movie made me kind of mad because the previews were misleading into thinking it was a funny movie, but it was not. At all. But it was pretty good for a depressing movie (tell me why Blockbuster has it in the 'comedy' section!).

Anyway, sometimes I think about what I would do if something happened to my husband and I just know I would be a MESS for no less than the rest of my life I'm pretty sure. Same with the fam. I know what you mean!

Rachel said...

I felt the same way after watching this movie...

It makes me so depressed to even think about losing a spouse, or, in my case, BF. :(

Shop Girl* said...

I SOBBED through that entire movie. Like, heart-wrenching, uncontrollable sobs. It was not pretty. ahha

I don't know what I'd do if I lost the Hubster... especially now when we're both so young. I just don't think about it. haha

Meg said...

My friend sobbed through that movie, I, on the other hand, tried to watch it two different times and fell asleep both times! Never got into it.

I deal with death and dying a lot...next semester will start my second semester in oncology (not to mention my future father in law having terminal cancer, my mom being a cancer survivor and my friends 2 year old little girl having cancer...). It follows me, it's everywhere. With that being said, I obviously think about it a good deal, I don't know what I'd do.

Eh...we healthy, young and alive, we should celebrate that instead of think of the what ifs. :)

Ashley said...

I always think about this! How many people would attend my funeral? Would they share funny stories? How many gallons of ice cream would be served?

(my ice cream is your macaroni and cheese)

Brittany said...

I don't know how you posted that picture! I can not think about death. I am completely claustrophobic and just the thought of me being inside of something in the ground makes me want to scream. Yes, I know I won't know...but still, I freak!

Brown Girl said...

Oh my gosh that movie is so sad and that would be horrible to lose the person you loved! Boo, let's not think about it. Ok? Ok! ;)

Alicia said...

i can't even think about losing my husband or my kids...just the thought KILLS me!! but i love your funeral party ideas...the free bird?? nice!! and cereal?? that's genius!

Organic Meatbag said...

I figure there's no point in me being buried in a casket and taking up even more room on this Earth when I'm dead, so I want to be cremated and I want Pink Floyd and Zeppelin played at my funeral celebration!

Learning As I Go said...

I am selfish I want lots and lots of people at my funeral and I want them ALL yes ALL of them to CRY!! Can't help it. I want to be missed. Girl, I must say I don't want to ever go to your or big man's funeral till we are like 90 something. I do not and I mean do not handle death very well, as you may know..

Llama said...

AWW! I just love that movie! It really makes you think about life. Appreciate every moment you have! Go give your man a nice big hug!
:)

rachaelgking said...

For some reason I couldn't get through that movie. I just don't buy Hilary Swank as a romantic heroine, I think.

Children of the 90s said...

I didn't want to see this movie for that exact reason. I must say, however, your funeral feast sounds delicious.

Iva Messy said...
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Iva Messy said...

ha! wait! I did! I just remembered that I did! LOL ...gerr I always forget movies! this was such a sad movie!! I can't stand to think of that!! no no no!!

Have a great weekend!

Gina said...

Glad to know I am not the only one who thinks these morbid thoughts! :)